Friday, June 29, 2018

Let it Be

Homeostasis comes fleet and 
Comforts for long seconds 
In these solstice nights
Now passed, when
Light and words arrived
In the bark of
Trees, some ancient script, 
In patterns across land flicker-lit by
Late fireflies now come in these 
Last nights, and a
Summer skipping through spring and
Back, just too cold sometimes, or 
Hotter than hells’ bellows

In another life
I trod a highland pasture,
Not sure if I would cultivate it or not
It was the work that wore me down,
I tried to find some 
Balance in the heather and the gorse, 
On tavern floors, heels
Clicking, tapping, schessing,
Sounds lifting me to dancing 
And back to a cottage, still and spare, 
Gleaming whitewashed, perched on 
A cliff side tor
Under a highland moon, while 
Wind-sharp current from the 
North Atlantic carried longing,
Unknown, to never dissipate

I would rather have what 
Could have been
Than what was,
The now is what is, 
A bypassing storm
Leaving beautiful
Grays, lit by wind and motion, 
Whippoorwill call, and 
Other birds;
Bullfrogs tuning into night, and 
Close I hear them, hummingbirds,

Magic, all this motion.
The wind picks up again,
One storm floats away, 
Called across another constellation of
Patterns flying to the here then gone.
It’s like that, I think, 
Storms, light, wind, the 
Zephyr from an ocean shore, the 
Clean wash of stout breeze bringing 
Calm after those 
Cells that moved across
Plains’ skies
Flashed purple, lit by
Silver strikes, now flowing into
Years and decades on, 
And I, in primal memory
Recall how to read the signs, these
Things, alive and singular,
Coming from past, another life, 
Coming across oceans, 
Rolling from the prairie,
All the while when I was
Dancing in the mountains.

Saturday, June 2, 2018

My Prairie Thinking

Trying to pick thru the thickets
I find I don’t do it well
It’s paralyzing, in the same 
Moments as all possibilities
Are alive,
Those with promise, those with
Sorrow,
Those that confirm
The is and shall be,
Still,
I don’t know how to navigate
Them. 

It is a fortune, though,
That I can go outside, literally
And pick through 
The thickets,
And perhaps
Right now, since there’s been 
Too much rain, and 
I bent a mower blade
But have the new one
And do not like to not
Do what I’m supposed to be doing
For lack of 
A blade, as Robert says,
“A boy job,”
I’m off-balance. 

It’s an unnecessary hiatus, just when 
I’m nearly fully
Into always-healing
Spring, the one that just 
Sprinted through, right on 
Into summer, 
Hence with ferns wild,
Peonies in riot blooming south 
Around to north,
Apple trees and climbers 
Setting buds and blooming, 
Ankle high grass and weeds
Needing my mowing
And me needing my zen.

I have other outside things to do
Though, and so I do,
And feel the heat when
I stretch to hang a basket, 
Damp and full of blooming things 
Planted heavy in the fiber liners, 
Or go out to clip 
Branches that get in my way 
When I am mowing, 
But I don’t think I can
Lift the canopy with the
Big trees now myself,
Although I did three years ago.
My heart pounds too much
And the humidity rolls through me 
With its certainty,
Flows down my face 
And drenches me,
Small mighty river
As I tell myself to get things done.
The canopy needs to be taken up,
No question, just a wee 
Lifting, not too much, because 
There is refuge there,
Deep shade, green filtered sunlight through 
Old oaks, linden, maples, and 
Beyond back to my gardens, 
And the flowerings out there,
Ornamental pear, weeping cherry
And the smokebush. 
Along the new outside
Worlds around here 
These last few years, there’s 
Bramble, 
Wild honeysuckle
Rambling rose
All kinds of things growing 
In the near-two decades
We’ve been composting 
Into our small frontier, stewarding 
As best we can a future in this place 
For someone, 
But I digress, my point was
A trim will do.

I spin like a disappearing world
When I’m doing these sorts of 
Things, or even trying. 
The looking up is sending me into
This vertigo, and sometimes if 
I wait until it stops before I 
Tell myself that it’s all right to wonder
If I’ll be able to keep my bearings,
I see that I am quite steady looking 
Forward, where my vast has always been,
Salvation’s opening spaces.