I sit on the small concrete bench
Under the trumpet vine in the
Evergreen garden,
The chamaecyparis
Bending into my frame, as I look out
Up north into the darkening sky.
The trumpet vine is old, winding, sinuous
Old and laden with that
Coral orangeness about to pop
There are fireflies in this peaceful place
Although there’s
No way can I capture them.
Suffice it to write
These fireflies winking
Are the gift in the chaos.
I snap a photo
Looking east toward the back of my house
Over the top of the arbor vitae hedge surrounding
This old garden,
It’s flat, no light from my house.
Sometimes it’s a rough passage
Between here and a house unlit,
Or maybe I mean lit,
The toll of the struggle pours into
These last days,
And I’m just determined,
Maybe, no, praying for balance.